VICES: ✦ Pride
Pride, perhaps, is the biggest out of all Rin's vices. A large chunk of her self-esteem, self-image, and the structure of her life is built around a foundation of pride. As the sole heir (after her sister was adopted out to another family) it was her responsibility to live up to a family name with a lot of history. As such she will fall prey to attempting to prove her worth, the need to pry praise out of others, and she'll let her façade of elegance fall away if her pride is damaged or wounded in any way she deems unacceptable. A lot of her other character traits and qualities can be rooted back to the umbrella of pride even if they're tucked neatly under another name like a subsection.
✦ Arrogance
Rin has always been the golden child. Popular, top of her class, and someone who all the kids would flock to in elementary school for homework advice. Even as a teen, even as she kept all relationships shallow, people still admired her from affair and propped her up on a pedestal. Because of this she has always had confidence in her abilities and prowess. While Rin is on record saying, "If I know I can't accomplish something I won't even try," but that some how makes it worse. It means that every thing she does think she can accomplish is met with the bluster and confidence of a young woman ready to prove herself who as-of-yet has never been beaten down enough to learn her lesson. This also is a factor in her "I always mess up the most important thing." Rin is prone to taking on challenges she 'knows she can win' so while trying to over plan and force a victory she ends up missing small but critical details that can lead to her own demise.
✦ Vanity
Tying in with her pride, vanity is a huge issue for Tohsaka. As a mage she's lumped in with a class of people who utilize all manner of deceit and underhanded methods to come out on top. Which means Rin finds her body to be "just another weapon in the arsenal." Rin never leaves her house looking less than her best, and despite being the opposite of a morning person she will get up early to make sure that she's visually perfect. Aside from that, Rin also wears noticeable perfume — which is a big statement to make because where she lives it's considered "impolite" to smell too strongly or offensively. Rin will also sew sachets of dried flowers into her clothes, but this is because the medicine she takes to suppress the pain of her Magic Crest "makes her smell like an apothecary". While confident in her looks, she painstakingly watches what she eats (despite a love for food in general and a soft spot for sweets) as well as works out before bed to maintain her image.
✦ Dishonesty
A mage is expected to keep magecraft/Mystery away from the eyes of common people. This goes doubly so as Rin has inherited the title of "overseer" of the land her father once managed. That in combination with the previously mentioned duplicitous nature of mages, Rin has grown up to be dishonest. Rarely does she ever reveal her true feelings or the "whole picture" of her thoughts or opinions. Sometimes she can be blunt and straightforward, but typically she's always hiding some part of herself from others. This shroud of dishonesty becomes even thicker if she's trying to protect someone or views them as a potential thread. Because of this she has a hard time sorting through her own feelings and grappling which parts of herself are true, and which ones were crafted as a defense mechanism.
VIRTUES: ✦ Compassion
One of Rin's biggest virtues is her compassion. While she may say she doesn't understand other people's pain or struggles well, she seems to feel for them all the same. When she was younger Rin had wanted to become "A Witch of Justice" — to using her magecraft as a way to protect the weak and shield them from the dangers of the world they did not know threatened them. However as she grew older this changed. She still felt the desire to help people, but in order to keep her late father proud of her she had to shed the notion of being so noble in that regard. It's a part of the reason she keeps such shallow relationships; for she fears that by following mage law she would have to "erase" any common person who found out about Mystery and magecraft. Even so, the fact that she feels so strongly for others is an insecurity of hers. As it is a trait antithetical to being a mage she fears this natural inclination to wanting others to be safe and happy, and views it as a reason why she has to try so hard to toe the line of being "a good mage". Because if she's not a good mage... then why was she picked as heir over her sister? Yet still she says things like, "I hate seeing other people struggle and try their best only to get nothing out of it in the end."
✦ Responsibility
One of the ways she grapples with her innate caring nature is trying to form her relationships around a structure that could not be so scrutinized by other mages. Sakura explains that Rin categorizes her relationships into "debts and repayments". So that if she wants to keep someone around, all she has to do is rationalize that "this person still owes me, so they cannot leave until I've been repaid". However this also works inversely: if you wish to keep Tohsaka around, put her in a debt that cannot be repaid. Because of her pride and obtuse sense of obligation she will refuse to back out of anything that requires her to become "even" with someone. This also means that she is likely to burden herself with more than she can handle, honor the losing terms of a challenge even if she doesn't like it, and go out of her way to "correct things" that she thinks should have been under her wing to fix. It's most likely a part of her "big sister complex" that never left her, even when Sakura did.
SURVEY
▶ I REGULARLY MAKE NEW FRIENDS. ▷ 2 → While this is true, most of the "friends" she makes are shallow relationships due to her responsibility to keep her life as a mage a secret.
▶ SEEING OTHER PEOPLE CRY MAKES ME WANT TO CRY TOO. ▷ 5 → In the route she's pulled from she has only ever cried once in front of someone else (after her father's funeral).
▶ I OFTEN MAKE A BACKUP PLAN FOR A BACKUP PLAN. ▷ 1 → Rin is prone to overthinking a situation. It is in fact this obsession over being prepared that actually causes her to mess up the "little things" during planning.
▶ I USUALLY STAY CALM, EVEN WHEN UNDER A LOT OF PRESSURE. ▷ 1 → Having trained herself for 10yrs for a war, this is true.
▶ I AM VERY SENTIMENTAL. ▷ 2 → While she would answer ICly a 4, it's actually her sentimental side that makes her worry she won't make a good mage.
▶ EVEN A SMALL MISTAKE CAN CAUSE ME TO DOUBT MY OVERALL ABILITIES AND KNOWLEDGE. ▷ 2 → Despite ICly denying as much, Rin holds herself to a very high standard as heir of her family legacy. So when she fumbles (and this happens a lot) it stays with her.
▶ I AM MORE INCLINED TO FOLLOW MY HEAD THAN MY HEART. ▷ 1 → Mostly true. As a mage she considers herself to be someone who values logic above all else. However she's softhearted and it shows from time to time.
▶ I AM PRONE TO WORRYING THAT THINGS WILL TAKE A TURN FOR THE WORSE. ▷ 3 → She would consider it "preparation" rather than genuine worry. Though Rin is an over-thinker, so in reality this may be more of a 4 or 5.
▶ I ENJOY WATCHING PEOPLE ARGUE. ▷ 2 → Depends on subject matter, but she could potentially find it amusing or annoying; She is on record saying she enjoys getting into arguments to keep herself sharp.
▶ I TEND TO AVOID DRAWING ATTENTION TO MYSELF. ▷ 3 → YES AND NO. Blending in means having the element of surprise. Standing out means using your popularity in a way that could be leveraged against others.
▶ I OFTEN DO THINGS AT THE LAST POSSIBLE MOMENT. ▷ 3 → Depends on the "thing" but this definitely happens more than once.
▶ I FIND IT EASY TO EMPATHIZE WITH A PERSON WHOSE EXPERIENCES ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM MINE. ▷ 3 → In reality she would answer a 5 because Rin outright admits difficulty understanding other people's situations. However it doesn't mean she fails to try, even if she pretends not to.
▶ I BECOME BORED OR LOSE INTEREST WHEN THE DISCUSSION GETS HIGHLY THEORETICAL. ▷ 5 → Not at all. Magecraft is a mix of science and the supernatural, so theoretical discussions happen quite often.
▶ I RARELY FEEL INSECURE. ▷ 3 → Yet she'd lie and answer closer to 1. For example she's so worried about her scent that she sews sachets into her clothes with dried flowers — and that's on top of wearing perfume.
▶ I AM STILL BOTHERED BY MISTAKES I MADE A LONG TIME AGO. ▷ 2 → Despite ICly answering a 4. While Rin may be the type to always push forward, she's also the type to be excessively hard on herself.
SUIT REQUESTS: First: Clubs | Second: Hearts
RANK REQUESTS: Random
SAMPLES: Jinx & Furina
A showcase of her softheartedness, and the ways she justifies or conceals it.
Archer
A peek at her childish temper and motivations.
Tyki
Highlighting control, and the mask called "elegance".
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✦ Pride
Pride, perhaps, is the biggest out of all Rin's vices. A large chunk of her self-esteem, self-image, and the structure of her life is built around a foundation of pride. As the sole heir (after her sister was adopted out to another family) it was her responsibility to live up to a family name with a lot of history. As such she will fall prey to attempting to prove her worth, the need to pry praise out of others, and she'll let her façade of elegance fall away if her pride is damaged or wounded in any way she deems unacceptable. A lot of her other character traits and qualities can be rooted back to the umbrella of pride even if they're tucked neatly under another name like a subsection.
✦ Arrogance
Rin has always been the golden child. Popular, top of her class, and someone who all the kids would flock to in elementary school for homework advice. Even as a teen, even as she kept all relationships shallow, people still admired her from affair and propped her up on a pedestal. Because of this she has always had confidence in her abilities and prowess. While Rin is on record saying, "If I know I can't accomplish something I won't even try," but that some how makes it worse. It means that every thing she does think she can accomplish is met with the bluster and confidence of a young woman ready to prove herself who as-of-yet has never been beaten down enough to learn her lesson. This also is a factor in her "I always mess up the most important thing." Rin is prone to taking on challenges she 'knows she can win' so while trying to over plan and force a victory she ends up missing small but critical details that can lead to her own demise.
✦ Vanity
Tying in with her pride, vanity is a huge issue for Tohsaka. As a mage she's lumped in with a class of people who utilize all manner of deceit and underhanded methods to come out on top. Which means Rin finds her body to be "just another weapon in the arsenal." Rin never leaves her house looking less than her best, and despite being the opposite of a morning person she will get up early to make sure that she's visually perfect. Aside from that, Rin also wears noticeable perfume — which is a big statement to make because where she lives it's considered "impolite" to smell too strongly or offensively. Rin will also sew sachets of dried flowers into her clothes, but this is because the medicine she takes to suppress the pain of her Magic Crest "makes her smell like an apothecary". While confident in her looks, she painstakingly watches what she eats (despite a love for food in general and a soft spot for sweets) as well as works out before bed to maintain her image.
✦ Dishonesty
A mage is expected to keep magecraft/Mystery away from the eyes of common people. This goes doubly so as Rin has inherited the title of "overseer" of the land her father once managed. That in combination with the previously mentioned duplicitous nature of mages, Rin has grown up to be dishonest. Rarely does she ever reveal her true feelings or the "whole picture" of her thoughts or opinions. Sometimes she can be blunt and straightforward, but typically she's always hiding some part of herself from others. This shroud of dishonesty becomes even thicker if she's trying to protect someone or views them as a potential thread. Because of this she has a hard time sorting through her own feelings and grappling which parts of herself are true, and which ones were crafted as a defense mechanism.
VIRTUES:
✦ Compassion
One of Rin's biggest virtues is her compassion. While she may say she doesn't understand other people's pain or struggles well, she seems to feel for them all the same. When she was younger Rin had wanted to become "A Witch of Justice" — to using her magecraft as a way to protect the weak and shield them from the dangers of the world they did not know threatened them. However as she grew older this changed. She still felt the desire to help people, but in order to keep her late father proud of her she had to shed the notion of being so noble in that regard. It's a part of the reason she keeps such shallow relationships; for she fears that by following mage law she would have to "erase" any common person who found out about Mystery and magecraft. Even so, the fact that she feels so strongly for others is an insecurity of hers. As it is a trait antithetical to being a mage she fears this natural inclination to wanting others to be safe and happy, and views it as a reason why she has to try so hard to toe the line of being "a good mage". Because if she's not a good mage... then why was she picked as heir over her sister? Yet still she says things like, "I hate seeing other people struggle and try their best only to get nothing out of it in the end."
✦ Responsibility
One of the ways she grapples with her innate caring nature is trying to form her relationships around a structure that could not be so scrutinized by other mages. Sakura explains that Rin categorizes her relationships into "debts and repayments". So that if she wants to keep someone around, all she has to do is rationalize that "this person still owes me, so they cannot leave until I've been repaid". However this also works inversely: if you wish to keep Tohsaka around, put her in a debt that cannot be repaid. Because of her pride and obtuse sense of obligation she will refuse to back out of anything that requires her to become "even" with someone. This also means that she is likely to burden herself with more than she can handle, honor the losing terms of a challenge even if she doesn't like it, and go out of her way to "correct things" that she thinks should have been under her wing to fix. It's most likely a part of her "big sister complex" that never left her, even when Sakura did.
SURVEY
SUIT REQUESTS: First: Clubs | Second: Hearts▶ I REGULARLY MAKE NEW FRIENDS.
▷ 2 → While this is true, most of the "friends" she makes are shallow relationships due to her responsibility to keep her life as a mage a secret.
▶ SEEING OTHER PEOPLE CRY MAKES ME WANT TO CRY TOO.
▷ 5 → In the route she's pulled from she has only ever cried once in front of someone else (after her father's funeral).
▶ I OFTEN MAKE A BACKUP PLAN FOR A BACKUP PLAN.
▷ 1 → Rin is prone to overthinking a situation. It is in fact this obsession over being prepared that actually causes her to mess up the "little things" during planning.
▶ I USUALLY STAY CALM, EVEN WHEN UNDER A LOT OF PRESSURE.
▷ 1 → Having trained herself for 10yrs for a war, this is true.
▶ I AM VERY SENTIMENTAL.
▷ 2 → While she would answer ICly a 4, it's actually her sentimental side that makes her worry she won't make a good mage.
▶ EVEN A SMALL MISTAKE CAN CAUSE ME TO DOUBT MY OVERALL ABILITIES AND KNOWLEDGE.
▷ 2 → Despite ICly denying as much, Rin holds herself to a very high standard as heir of her family legacy. So when she fumbles (and this happens a lot) it stays with her.
▶ I AM MORE INCLINED TO FOLLOW MY HEAD THAN MY HEART.
▷ 1 → Mostly true. As a mage she considers herself to be someone who values logic above all else. However she's softhearted and it shows from time to time.
▶ I AM PRONE TO WORRYING THAT THINGS WILL TAKE A TURN FOR THE WORSE.
▷ 3 → She would consider it "preparation" rather than genuine worry. Though Rin is an over-thinker, so in reality this may be more of a 4 or 5.
▶ I ENJOY WATCHING PEOPLE ARGUE.
▷ 2 → Depends on subject matter, but she could potentially find it amusing or annoying; She is on record saying she enjoys getting into arguments to keep herself sharp.
▶ I TEND TO AVOID DRAWING ATTENTION TO MYSELF.
▷ 3 → YES AND NO. Blending in means having the element of surprise. Standing out means using your popularity in a way that could be leveraged against others.
▶ I OFTEN DO THINGS AT THE LAST POSSIBLE MOMENT.
▷ 3 → Depends on the "thing" but this definitely happens more than once.
▶ I FIND IT EASY TO EMPATHIZE WITH A PERSON WHOSE EXPERIENCES ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM MINE.
▷ 3 → In reality she would answer a 5 because Rin outright admits difficulty understanding other people's situations. However it doesn't mean she fails to try, even if she pretends not to.
▶ I BECOME BORED OR LOSE INTEREST WHEN THE DISCUSSION GETS HIGHLY THEORETICAL.
▷ 5 → Not at all. Magecraft is a mix of science and the supernatural, so theoretical discussions happen quite often.
▶ I RARELY FEEL INSECURE.
▷ 3 → Yet she'd lie and answer closer to 1. For example she's so worried about her scent that she sews sachets into her clothes with dried flowers — and that's on top of wearing perfume.
▶ I AM STILL BOTHERED BY MISTAKES I MADE A LONG TIME AGO.
▷ 2 → Despite ICly answering a 4. While Rin may be the type to always push forward, she's also the type to be excessively hard on herself.
RANK REQUESTS: Random
SAMPLES:
Jinx & Furina
A showcase of her softheartedness, and the ways she justifies or conceals it.
Archer
A peek at her childish temper and motivations.
Tyki
Highlighting control, and the mask called "elegance".