[Tohsaka will take roughly twenty minutes to wallow over the end of that encounter. Over how Mordred was complaining yet still didn't seem to want to seek her out as a Master (a failure on Rin's part, Tohsaka will assume), over how she didn't even press for her name, and the realization hits her just how hard it's going to be to survive in this place.
And how, out of all the people from her home, she's the only one. Weren't there people who deserved it more? Sakura could reinvent herself here — her soul reborn without her old body littered with worms. Or Emiya... he could have fit in so well with the Meridians and not ever have to doubt himself. He wouldn't be alone, because there'd be people with the same ideal supporting him.
She spirals. For a good twenty minutes the vibes are absolutely atrocious in that dorm. But after that? She gets back to it. Because what else is there to do but survive? If she just rolled over and let herself be snuffed out it would be even more of an insult to the people who didn't get to make it this far.]
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And how, out of all the people from her home, she's the only one. Weren't there people who deserved it more? Sakura could reinvent herself here — her soul reborn without her old body littered with worms. Or Emiya... he could have fit in so well with the Meridians and not ever have to doubt himself. He wouldn't be alone, because there'd be people with the same ideal supporting him.
She spirals. For a good twenty minutes the vibes are absolutely atrocious in that dorm. But after that? She gets back to it. Because what else is there to do but survive? If she just rolled over and let herself be snuffed out it would be even more of an insult to the people who didn't get to make it this far.]